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Podcast and Promotion

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As it turns out, I am terrible at self promotion. I have now added to my list of things to take care of here on the site ‘update where people can find your work’.

I thought of this because I have been asked to participate in a podcast. I”m a bit nervous about being recorded. Not something I’ve really done before. I suspect I’ve been recorded at conventions I’ve been a speaker for, but not with the purpose of being ‘featured’ if that’s even really a thing. I look forward to the experience and then breaking down how it all went on here later.

IF you’re so inclined, you should check out the podcast! The homepage for them is here.

Death of a Convention

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I posted this initially on my Facebook page, but I am not really a fan of that place. Safer to keep a copy here where I can come back to it with less issue.

The convention has been canceled. This is the last event the company behind Regeneration Who, Potterverse and Intervention had scheduled to my knowledge. This cancellation is unfortunate and difficult to process for many. I am still trying to decide how I feel about the whole thing. Instant reactions are not often the best reactions.

Running an event like this – any event really – is a lot of work. It’s a lot of logistics and arrangements and contracts and… you get the idea. It takes a team of dedicated people. Events like these can be really magical to those involved and to those making it happen. The key part of that is ‘magic’.

It is exceedingly rare to see events create and capture that kind of magic over and over again. Magic is fleeting, it is ephemeral. The misty parts at the edges of your memories about all the great things going on tend to cover up those hard working corners and the dusty bins containing all the pain and the sweat and the frustrations. Sometimes the best possible thing is to allow the magic to float and drift and remain as a fleeting vision. Perhaps that vision will inspire others and another beanstalk will grow from the magic beans acquired at something we created.

As part of the children’s program team (and then head of the department) it was always my goal to create a place where any of the young fans could create, express and enjoy all the things that their imaginations wanted. When asked to provide a job description for my position to the leaders of the con I told them simply, “Children’s Programming is the creation of a lavish 8 year old’s birthday party that needs to be sustained for an entire weekend. It really isn’t more difficult than that.”

It was more difficult than it sounds. The ideas, the planning, the craft testing and the clean up were a lot of work. It was worth it. Teaching young fans how to imagine and create with their fandom and then act in a way that will allow others to join and follow in their footsteps was vital. Regeneration Who 5 would have been my 14th convention doing this. Over the years of work there was always the hope that we were doing it right, but it was just hope. This year I got the best result I could have hoped for. I was approached by a young fan I knew that had attended many of our events and spent a great deal of time creating and imagining things in our program room to ask me a question. This young fan had passed their 18th birthday – and could they now become a staff member and join the team to help create the magic.

That was the goal. Achievement unlocked. Level up. I could not have been happier.

Now, particularly given current circumstances, I think it’s time to allow others to carry on the magic. I don’t believe I will be part of con staff any more. I want to keep a little of that magic and let the fuzzy edges soften things. I want to see what others come up with. It will take an awful lot to make me reconsider at this point. Change is inevitable. Magic is fleeting.

Things are a mess right now. I have no answers for any of that. There are a lot of angry and hurt people out there. Hold on to the magic and give time the chance to soften the edges. Keep some of the magic within yourself but pass a spark on to others so they can enjoy it too.

Thank you for the opportunity to be part of the team. Thank you to my team – you were amazing (and totally made me look good!). Thank you to all the folks with kind words and encouragement. Please share this post if you feel the need to. I look forward to seeing you out and about in the magical world of fandom.

Captain Marvel

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I wrote a review last year about Black Panther and said that it wasn’t for me. I didn’t mean that I didn’t like it, I meant that the representation of the film and the story was not aimed at me. I was not the demographic that film was intended to hit. Some people didn’t understand what I was saying and thought I didn’t like the movie. I do like it.

Why did I put all this about Black Panther up front?

WOW!


Once again I am NOT the target demographic of a super hero film. I can’t tell you how happy it makes me that my daughter IS the target and that we got to go and see this movie together. I think this kind of hero is exactly what my daughter should be looking for in a film. If you’ve seen the trailers, you see the part where this woman gets knocked down but keeps getting back up. That alone makes it worth while to me. A good story and crazy good special effects AND tying in to the MCU? Bonus.

I have read / heard about some people attempting to bring this movie down because it was featuring / lead by a woman. That is one of the single worst statements on Fandom today. I’ve written about it here before so I won’t digress into all that. You know what? I LOVE that this movie is not aimed at me. It was super. It was fun. It was heroic ~ and exactly the sort of thing that would have fired my imagination for a long, long time as a kid. I am considering taking my daughter to see this movie again. We will own it and likely shelve it right next to Wonder Woman. I hope we rewatch it many times.

If you get the chance, see this film.

Epistolary… I had to look it up too.

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Griffin and Sabine (Griffin & Sabine #1)

Griffin and Sabine by Nick Bantock

My rating: 4 of 5 stars


I am working my way through the “Read Harder” list for this year and one of the tasks is “A epistolary novel or collection of letters”. I hadn’t given it much thought when I happened to remember seeing this book many years ago. I immediately went back searched down a copy. I remembered being very into the book, but did not remember much more about it.

Now that I have had the chance to read this again I remember all the bits that made it memorable. This is a one sitting book. Partially because it is not long. Partially because you’ll just keep wanting to find out more.

It is very art heavy ~ that is part of what made it so memorable to me. I could picture it in my mind’s eye even when I couldn’t remember anything else about it.

Worth reading. IF you’re going out there to find a used one, be sure (if you can) that the letters folded up inside (and part of the story) are still there.

Now I need to decide if I want to read the others. There was no ‘series’ when I first found this book. I’m uncertain if I want more or if I want it to stay just as it is…



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Backstage and a long title

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Backstage: A Novel of Secret Agendas, Slow Burn Romance, and Imaginary Cats

Backstage: A Novel of Secret Agendas, Slow Burn Romance, and Imaginary Cats by Joan Wendland

My rating: 4 of 5 stars


Disclaimer land again: I have a bias. Know this up front. I didn’t get the book for free or anything like that, but there is a personal connection here. The author herself and I had a chat at a convention and she pointed me at this one. Go, buy it. Check it out and see what you think, but most importantly, make sure the author gets paid.

On to the work itself. I actively struggled with the title. After having attempted to just search it up under “backstage” I understand why there’s a need for differentiation. Personally I would have cut it down to Backstage: Imaginary Cats or some significantly shorter name.

Then I started reading. This book put me very much in the mindset of ‘The Adjustment Bureau’. The main difference is the main character is working for the bureau rather than against it. IF you enjoyed the idea of people toying with the way the world functions you’ll probably get into this one.

The invisible cat thing is actually a great call back in the story. I hope that part carries on.

Go, check out this author’s work!



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Armored Saint

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The Armored Saint (The Sacred Throne, #1)

The Armored Saint by Myke Cole

My rating: 4 of 5 stars


Disclaimer land: I have a bias. Know this up front. I didn’t get the book for free or anything like that, but there is a personal connection here. Go and buy Myke’s works. All of them. Even the ones I told you I don’t like. Don’t believe me, what the hell do I know? – go see for yourself. Make sure the author gets paid.

Armored Saint is by far my favorite of Myke’s work. I don’t know what made him desire to write this character from this point of view but it is really well done. I absolutely believe the people in this book. The characters grow and interact and have reactions that I understand. Heloise is real and fantastic.

The world building is evident without being over the top. The things people do and how they act, including religion, are based in a coherent place. This is actually important to the story and brought about an event that I really didn’t expect. It was refreshing to be able to say “didn’t see that coming” and really mean it.

The one thing that bothered me about the entire book was the end. It just seemed so abrupt. I was ready for the story to start… and then we were done. I did the only sensible thing and went out and bought the next one and that’s rare for me.

The author was also kind enough to answer my question about that ending. Check out his interview over at Watch The Skies.

When you’re done with the interview – go read his book!


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The ever present “I’m Back” post…

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It happens to bloggers all the time. “Hey, I’m back!” because real life has a way of stamping down on free writing and laying out words with no real return. I have no doubt that I’ll be back here for a bit and then real life will come crashing in again and make a hash of things. It’s happened an awful lot over the years. I don’t apologize for it anymore. It happens.

I’ve got a lot of catching up to do. I’ve posted before about the slump I hit at the end of last year. It’s been a struggle to get past that. I think I’m doing it. I’ve got 2 stories out for consideration right now and a third, based on an invitation I received, is due in this week. The writing is moving along.

Reading is making a comeback too. It has been more of a struggle to stay invested in the work of others than ever before, but I’ve found a couple of things worth reading.

I’ve also picked up a few shows and taken the time to watch them. I have to say that Netflix has figured out the formula. I can watch when my schedule permits and otherwise just ignore the TV. It’s not easy to just ignore an addiction. Breaking the habit is hard to do. To that end I have dropped all but the most basic television connection. I keep the most basic just to allow better reception of local channels (PBS in particular) and have watched maybe one show in the past month via scheduled broadcast. The funny thing is – I don’t even have to do that. The show I watch has all their episodes posted on line. It’s just something of a routine when a lazy Saturday morning happens to come about.

In generally getting things back in order and attempting to catch up with everything I’ve gone slack on I’m also going to attempt to get things around the old Pretend Blog into better shape. I know the six of you that read here will be thrilled.

Next up – catching up on my book reviews and Goodreads posts. After that – I should really update the part where I promote myself better!

The Kid Who Made No Money

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I took the family to see a movie. There are lots of movies coming out – and a lot of really good stuff to see. We went to see “The Kid Who Would Be King”. Yes, it’s a retelling of the Arthurian legend BUT it was new, it had at least one amazing actor and had enough of a budget to have really good special effects.

Guess what?

It bombed at the box office. It makes me more than a little sad to think that once again, just like Mortal Engines a movie that was not tied to a massive franchise, wasn’t a sequel and wasn’t a direct remake of something we’ve seen in our time dismally failed at the box office. I still hear people complain about movies and the lack of enjoyable new stuff that Hollyweird produces and yet once again there was a complete failure to show movie types that’s what anyone actually wants (by going to see a good film!).

IF you have a kiddo around the 10 – 14 year old range OR you just love movies aimed right at that age group you should definitely check this film out. It was a fun retelling of the King Arthur legend and had the bonus of giving some total ‘gross out’ information that turns out to be quite real (Merlin’s diet info is REAL)!

On Fandom

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This was originally published in Watch The Skies for the January 2019 issue.

Fandom is a wide ranging place. There are folks from across the spectrum of humanity and all around the globe… or at least that’s how it’s supposed to be. Somehow that’s not how it’s working out.

There have been a number of actresses that have recently departed from social media after being harassed to the point that they felt interacting with fans was not worth the effort anymore, or worse it was actively dangerous to them. An actress, long out as gay, was the target of huge amounts of harassment for being picked to play a gay character. Let that sink in for a moment.

A gay actor is not right to play the part of a gay character. Cue Rage Spew and foulness from the dim glow of a screen in a basement.

It almost sounds like this is something new. Social media has been around for more than a decade now, but it has become ubiquitous. Say Facebook and everyone knows what you mean (and likely has an opinion on it). There are other platforms and many methods to be more connected to the people that help to create the things we all know an love.

This harassment is not new and that is what makes it more shameful to me. I listened to an actor talk about how he almost killed himself because of how he was treated after the role he played was deemed unworthy of the franchise he was part of. This was twenty years ago. Yes, twenty (20). This young man thought that his life was done, was not worth moving forward with because of the extraordinary backlash to his role. People hated what he had been part of creating and it almost killed him.

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My opening statement means you. Yes you. Fandom is not yours. It is communal property and you do not have a right to harass, threaten, demean or otherwise be shitty to the people that create it. The people creating this art are more open and accessible than any other time in history, and people that can’t behave any better than a four year old that missed snacks and nap time are driving them away. This is NOT acceptable. As a fan I love being able to connect with the folks that make some of the most amazing things. The more people are terrible to these creators (actors are not alone here) the more the creators pull away and become less available to us. All of us.

Fans love to disagree and then expand those discussions over far and wide ranging topics. Arguing about the latest film, book, play or adaptation to whatever form is right down at the core of fandom. Fans should discuss things. Fans absolutely have every right to dislike any media they consume. Fans do not have the right to abuse the people that helped to create it. Fans don’t own the things they love, the can only love or hate them from a distance. Our biggest responsibility as a community is to act with the future in mind. We must create a sense that all are welcome. More than welcoming, we must create an atmosphere and place where the children who see our actions will come to love and understand the same things. The best and only thing we can hope for is that our children see examples of the wonderful creations in fandom and the fantastic people involved and choose to continue making amazing things far into the future. We must show others how to have a good time so that good time will continue.

Fandom is not yours. It belongs to the future. Make that future the best it can be.

Failbook

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Facebook has become a known and common method of communicating with friends, family, associates and all manner of folks. It is a beast. It is huge… and it will do as it pleases.

Social media in general has come under fire for being a terrible thing that allows people to do and say rotten things to each other. It has become a storm of political hyperbole and equally outlandish backlash. I have grown to hate it. I joined Failbook almost a decade ago. It’s stunning to put it that way. Ten years of “like this post” and everything that goes with it, but now I am reconsidering.

The platform itself has privacy and security issues. To paraphrase some younger folks I know, “DUH!”. A socially connected computer program that reaches millions of people is going to have issues. That many people can’t be mixed together and have everything come out perfect. Just can’t happen. The biggest solution to that is I don’t put things out there that I don’t want others to know or that aren’t already public knowledge. I don’t connect it to my bank information or anything that I can’t drop or replace (yes, that includes my phone – it would be a pain in the ass, but I could do it).

It doesn’t connect my website posts automatically anymore. I will admit this is annoying. I prefer to work here when I can and link this site over. It used to be an automated thing, and now it doesn’t work. I have a series of developer messages that would require some amount of research and picking and pecking here on the site to get the connection to work again. I am not a web developer. I am not a programmer. I maintain this site on my own with my bare minimum amount of knowledge. Bluntly I don’t want to spend my time on a web site. Every bit of time I spend working on a web site problem or looking up programming connections or whatever other nonsense doesn’t work now is just more time away from the work I want to be doing. I don’t want to be a programmer, just an author.

Even if I could get it to work, there’s a fair chance nobody would see it anyway. The Failbook folks have decided that your small business links shouldn’t be seen in everyone’s feed… just the big companies that they work with. The site itself is worse than any needy significant other you have ever had. Constant messages about new posts, new friend suggestions, things YOU’VE MISSED! OH MY GOD WHY ARE YOU NOT ON THERE LOOKING AT THIS THING RIGHT NOW!?! They will do anything in a desperate attempt to capture your attention. They want you to scroll and click and like and all the other crap they’ve got going on. It has become intensely annoying. I have complained about it, out loud, frequently. This prompted my wife to yell at me, “Quit bitching! That’s how they make money. You react, you check, you click and they get paid. If you don’t like it, get off there and shut up about it!”

She’s not wrong. The purest distillation from that is a single fact. What you put up there IS NOT YOURS. I’m sure there’s a volume of legal mumbo-jumbo somewhere that declares what words are yours to use or not use and how they can collect it and catalog it and… whatever. It’s all bullshit and it’s not yours. They hold all the keys. They want to change something, they will. They want to deny you access, they will. You get the point. That is why I go through the trouble to maintain this site. It is mine (to the extent that any web based service is truly possessed). If I want to turn the whole thing purple I can. I will post as I please, when I please and all six of my readers will still see my words (after they check their news aggregators because this isn’t cross posting any more). I like the simplicity of it. It’s not going to win any awards, but it is mine. All the changes, all the anger, frustration and screaming into the void over what Failbook should or shouldn’t do amount to nothing. In the end it hasn’t dramatically changed my true friendships. It’s nice to be able to connect, but then I was also on Myspace and Livejournal. We see how those turned out.

I’m planning on staying on Failbook for now, but I’m not jumping through the hoops to make posts from here connect. Their site really isn’t worth the effort.